Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Things I Learned From Cancer

     I just came across this list I made  several years ago when I was in the middle of my cancer journey:

Things I Learned From Cancer

  • Bald is Beautiful!
  • Go slow. Look up at the sky. Study the trees that you pass each day. Thank God for all He has created for our amusement.
  • Nothing matters that much.
  • God is still a God of Miracles.
  • Fighting cancer is hard.
  • Life is precious. A fleeting moment.
  • My love for my sons, grandkids, mother and father, sister and brother and some others is tremendous.
  • Don't keep the good china just for holidays.
  • I was right. Life IS a party. Seize the Day.
     Below that list was another list:

Things I Will Do When I Get Well
  • Send a card to someone who is ill with words of encouragement. It can be a lifeline.
  • Take a meal to someone who is ill or needs help financially. It is a great help.
  • Go fishing.
  • If it is within my capabilities, help my neighbors if they need help.
  • Walk and hike and power walk again.
  • Learn to dance.  
  • Never forget to tell my Dad and Mom, Grandkids, Sons and Siblings that I love them.
  • Read my Bible more.
  • Learn something new like the flute, keyboards and drum.
  • Throw a party for everyone.
      I have to admit I have not accomplished everything on the last list exactly like I thought I would. Some I cannot do anymore because of the limitations my body holds from life-time chemo side effects. But I did and still do most. 
     Sometimes I get angry with myself and allow thoughts of what I cannot do anymore to suck the joy out of my day.  I miss myself - the me BC. (Before Cancer). I was independent, physically strong, rarely sick and my body devoid of multiple scars and deformities. I know, it could always be worse, yada yada. Everyones pain is real and loud no matter the level.
      I do realize there's much I can do. I may not be able to help build a house for  Habitat for Humanity, but I can encourage with words or sending a card. When people tell me that they have found strength and hope when they've received something from me or have heard my story, it gives me a purpose and also strength. Like the air that gives an eagle that push to fly, it gives me that push to move on past the daily irritations.
     Here's my new list

What Ilness Cannot Do:
  • It can't take away your family and friends who love you.
  • It can't diminish your faith.
  • It can't lose your good memories.
  • It can't kill your true self and spirit.
  • It can't cut your ability to still help others.  
  • It can't take away your smile. 
  • It can't steal your purpose in life.